When I was a kid, I thought being a music video director was a really cool job. MTV and cable tv were very popular back in the day and growing up in a house that had neither probably increased the appeal.

With the Internet, remix culture started taking off around the late 90s, early 2000s? Photoshop was invented in 1990. “A Stroke of Genie-us”, a mashup of Christina Aguilera’s “Genie in a Bottle” and The Strokes’ “Hard To Explain”, came out in 2001. YouTube was invented in early 2005 and acquired in late 2006. I Can Has Cheezburger/lolcats happened around 2007. That’s over 10 years ago. Now our memes are created, gif’d, and shared in a matter of moments.

So considering this is my first fanvid, you could argue I’m behind the digital times. (I’ve actually spliced physical film and tried to edit a video project in 7th grade. My partner kinda took over. Ah, groupwork.) I feel like I’ve got a good handle on audio editing and Audacity, even though there’s still a lot to learn. Video editing is even more complicated than audio editing. It was a lot of work to edit the audio, then download videos, edit them into subclips, and arrange them into some kind of narrative. I say I put 15 hours into this moody artsy fartsy 43 second thing?

One thing I learned in 2017 is that creating is restorative. Even if all my materials and inspiration are from other people’s work, I’m still taking all that and making something new. Even if no one else likes it, like it. And I learned how to make a thing. Which will help me in making future things. I can finally make that Beyonce/Pacific Rim fanvid now that I found an editing program that won’t crash in my old computer!

Another thing I didn’t realize was hard was sharing the finished result. I alternated between “this is so cool” and “what am I doing, this is garbage” a lot. It helped to frame it as I’m learning how to communicate visually in a new way, but it’s hard to go past “why bother?” On one hand, I’m making things I want to see in the world, which is pretty cool. Then again, external validation can feel pretty sweet. According to Twitter, this is a pretty common feeling, one that will take time to get used to. So I better start making more things!